My Negative Attitude (BOHICA)
Posted by Hiraghm 10 years, 6 months ago to Philosophy
A bit of a personal note, I guess; but some may find this amusing (probably not...)
I've apparently often, been thought of as harsh or grating in my commentary. I thought I might give an example of why I might tend to be that way.
Sometimes I used to think God was out to get me. With effort, I got over that way of thinking. But, sometimes things happen in my life to bring back that BOHICA feeling. Often enough, I guess, to make me generally harsh and grating...
Some folks here know I'm a big Lindsey Stirling fan (she's the gal who dances as she plays the violin; she's had phenomenal success which she's well-earned, imo).
She's currently on a N. American tour, and her last appearance is Dallas, on July 12th.
At one point, I began saving up for the trip down to Dallas to attend the concert; I even scheduled my vacation time for just afterwards so I would have time to rest up (or get out on bail, depending on how much I enjoyed the concert... )
Then I got a look in the mirror and realized A) the money could be better spent on other things (that's the "grown-up" way to think, I tell myself), and B) I would look/feel ridiculous in that crowd of fans half my age. So, I decided not to go after all.
Therefore, from about the 11th to the 21st of July, I'll be at home.
A few days ago, she uploaded a video to one of her youtube channels:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=er2akBZm...
"Walmart Fun- Lindsey Stirling "
Which shows her and her crew acting up at Wal-mart, late at night, and wherein she says they like to visit Wal-mart for fun and to get supplies. Cause they travel by bus.
And as many here know, I work at Wal-mart. At night.
I just saw this tweet:
https://twitter.com/LindseyStirling/stat...
"I'll be @Pemberton_Fest this July 16 - 20 in the mountains in Pemberton, BC! Get the lineup, info, and tickets here!"
Okay, I know a little geography... a little. See, Dallas is about 200 miles south of here, straight down I-35. I know that BC is northwest of here, by a long ways. (coincidentally, I once had a relationship with a woman from BC that ended very badly, but that's another BOHICA story).
So, it's possible that her bus will travel through OK City on their way to BC. And after 200 miles, it's quite probable that they'll want to stop for supplies and a little fun.
Now, there are Wal-marts in town that are closer to I-35 (especially if you include southern suburbs of Moore and Norman, and Northern suburb of Edmond), but mine is right off of I-40...
I just can't help having the feeling that I'm going to be sitting at home in my ratty apartment arguing with khalling et al, on a night when she and her crew happen to stop off at my Wal-mart...
Enough of these kinds of... premonitions, for want of a better term, have come about for me to develop a generally sour attitude towards life in general.
So, after half a century of this kind of thing actually happening (missed opportunities, bad decisions based on insufficient information, but often able to see it coming once I couldn't stop it), I tend to be a bit... anti-social and negative in my outlook.
I tend to give a jaundiced eye toward good fortune, waiting for the other shoe to drop, to show how it's just a tease, that I'm not really allowed to get what I want, except as a setup for ultimate failure and/or disappointment.
Yeah, I'm kinda superstitious that way.
I suppose I could spend the money to attend the concert, assuming my vehicle didn't die on the trip, and try to follow the bus if it heads up I-35... but that seems insanely creepy to me. Just to avoid being right in this BOHICA feeling? There's paranoid, and then there's paranoid...
I comfort myself with the thought that, as much as I'd like to meet her, I definitely don't want her to meet me.
Besides, if I can't justify a road trip to hear Michelle Malkin speak, I can't really justify a road trip to watch her play the violin, can I?
I've apparently often, been thought of as harsh or grating in my commentary. I thought I might give an example of why I might tend to be that way.
Sometimes I used to think God was out to get me. With effort, I got over that way of thinking. But, sometimes things happen in my life to bring back that BOHICA feeling. Often enough, I guess, to make me generally harsh and grating...
Some folks here know I'm a big Lindsey Stirling fan (she's the gal who dances as she plays the violin; she's had phenomenal success which she's well-earned, imo).
She's currently on a N. American tour, and her last appearance is Dallas, on July 12th.
At one point, I began saving up for the trip down to Dallas to attend the concert; I even scheduled my vacation time for just afterwards so I would have time to rest up (or get out on bail, depending on how much I enjoyed the concert... )
Then I got a look in the mirror and realized A) the money could be better spent on other things (that's the "grown-up" way to think, I tell myself), and B) I would look/feel ridiculous in that crowd of fans half my age. So, I decided not to go after all.
Therefore, from about the 11th to the 21st of July, I'll be at home.
A few days ago, she uploaded a video to one of her youtube channels:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=er2akBZm...
"Walmart Fun- Lindsey Stirling "
Which shows her and her crew acting up at Wal-mart, late at night, and wherein she says they like to visit Wal-mart for fun and to get supplies. Cause they travel by bus.
And as many here know, I work at Wal-mart. At night.
I just saw this tweet:
https://twitter.com/LindseyStirling/stat...
"I'll be @Pemberton_Fest this July 16 - 20 in the mountains in Pemberton, BC! Get the lineup, info, and tickets here!"
Okay, I know a little geography... a little. See, Dallas is about 200 miles south of here, straight down I-35. I know that BC is northwest of here, by a long ways. (coincidentally, I once had a relationship with a woman from BC that ended very badly, but that's another BOHICA story).
So, it's possible that her bus will travel through OK City on their way to BC. And after 200 miles, it's quite probable that they'll want to stop for supplies and a little fun.
Now, there are Wal-marts in town that are closer to I-35 (especially if you include southern suburbs of Moore and Norman, and Northern suburb of Edmond), but mine is right off of I-40...
I just can't help having the feeling that I'm going to be sitting at home in my ratty apartment arguing with khalling et al, on a night when she and her crew happen to stop off at my Wal-mart...
Enough of these kinds of... premonitions, for want of a better term, have come about for me to develop a generally sour attitude towards life in general.
So, after half a century of this kind of thing actually happening (missed opportunities, bad decisions based on insufficient information, but often able to see it coming once I couldn't stop it), I tend to be a bit... anti-social and negative in my outlook.
I tend to give a jaundiced eye toward good fortune, waiting for the other shoe to drop, to show how it's just a tease, that I'm not really allowed to get what I want, except as a setup for ultimate failure and/or disappointment.
Yeah, I'm kinda superstitious that way.
I suppose I could spend the money to attend the concert, assuming my vehicle didn't die on the trip, and try to follow the bus if it heads up I-35... but that seems insanely creepy to me. Just to avoid being right in this BOHICA feeling? There's paranoid, and then there's paranoid...
I comfort myself with the thought that, as much as I'd like to meet her, I definitely don't want her to meet me.
Besides, if I can't justify a road trip to hear Michelle Malkin speak, I can't really justify a road trip to watch her play the violin, can I?
Go.